ala korente

hay nako. after ng ulan at baha, brownout naman. ano nga ang SLA ng meralco on power interuptions?

since i was on leave (due to ondoy) for about a week, i often stayed late at office this past week. to catch up on hundreds of email and deliverables.

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this was 9pm inside our office. still had a lot to do but had no option but leave. the generator was not available,i think. or used up na.

had to use the stairs from 5th down to the ground. buti na lang medyo matapang ako that night. was able to veer away the stories about mumu from my mind while walking alone. hehehe

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at the ground floor, ang dilim!

buti pa ang jade palace, me kuryente! sus!

sabi ko ke jason, i hotel naman nya kami hehehe to make us comforable at night. ang hirap kayang magpaypay. wag naman sana dito heheheh :)

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ondoy casualty

here's mine. i know this is nothing compared to the losses most of our kababayans had. but this is given to me by jason. wasn't able to water it for 6 days. when i got back, it's already withered.

it's still with me. most of its leaves have fallen, but there are some that still looked fresh. sana mabuhay pa.

extra passenger

when jason fetched me from office two saturday nights ago, as i approached the car, i heard a cat's meow. it was raining so i thought there's a stray cat somewhere near the car.

however as we drove along, i am still hearing the meow, only a bit softer. i thought i was just hearing things (don't worry it's not that often heee). i asked jason if he's also hearing it. upon straining a little bit, he said he's also hearing it.

so where's the cat? can't probably be inside the car cause the meow was a lot louder when i was outside the car. we thought it was under the car. got worried that it might be on the wheels spinning its head off.

when we got the chance, we stopped at a mall with outside parking, and looked under our car. and there it goes, safely tucked atop the condenser(?).

here's jason trying to get the cat off the car. no luck. jason brought the car from the house to our office, and brought it back from the office to our house. heeee..

we didn't see the cat the morning after.

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blissful nama

well, we didn't plan for any valentine celebration (as usual) but it is red-marked because we were invited to attend a kiddie birthday party.

i took a half-day off from work to be able to attend the party held in a clubhouse in taguig. it was fun and tummy-filling, with hizon's as their caterer and frostings cupcake for dessert, we felt we didn't have any room left for dinner. the party ended at around 6pm and afterwhich we went shopping for aquim's shoeses (yeah, shoeses). we didn't find the right size for him in this branch in high street so we went to rockwell, around 9pm.

while in rockwell, an idea popped into my husband's mind and told me he now knows what would be his perfect valentine's gift for me. so he left at us hobbes & landes (trying out the shoes for aquim), while he get the gift for me.

we were done with shopping around 10pm, and then hubby snatched me off from aquim and yaya, give his gift to me and then we went to the 3rd floor. there he showed me where he got the gift, it's royce's. haha! alam nya talaga na weakness ko ang chocolates. kaya pala super excited siya na parang alam na alam nya na matutuwa ako sa gift nya, kahit na impromptu. heheh thanks, daddy!

finally, i was able to taste the famous royce nama chocolates. haha! i just know that they are famous but i still do not know what to expect about its taste, etc. in short, i'm clueless. i've just read from blogs once in a while that it's a must try but that's it.

i was impressed that with the box of chocolates comes this thermal packaging and 'dry ice' to protect the chocolates from melting. hmm.... nice ha.

we went home, settled aquim to bed, then i had my time with royce. hahaha.. so i took it out from the plastic bag. i unwrapped the foil/thermal packaging. i opened the box. and then i had to open another film/plastic wrapper. and here they are. unassumming chocolate squares (actually rectangle) showered with cocoa powder. and there's the little "spoon" pala.

so i had my first square. it is ...different. blissful. it melted in my mouth instantly which makes me want to have more. parang it was there then suddenly it's gone, leaving no traces behind. hahah. not unlike the other chocolates that i've tasted, na tipong me matitira at me matitira for me to savour for a few more seconds. eto, pag natunaw, wala na! hahaha ..

in fairness, masarap siya. creamy. and i want more, more, more. haha. can't wait to go back to rockwell and try each and every kind. i dont know what variant did my husband get for me. i assume it was the mild cacao. but i want to try the other variants. and besides, royce is way much cheaper than godiva.


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si yao ming, si felipe, si remy at si sharon

maliligo sana ako kagabi, nang pagbukas ko ng gripo, walang tubig! pinalipas ko muna, naisip ko, baka mamaya-maya lang magkatubig na. pagkalipas ng 30 minuto, binuksan ko uli ang gripo, wala pa ring tubig! hinde na ako nakatiis, bumaba na ako ang sinabi ko sa me ari ng inuupahan namin na wala ng tubig. kailangan ng paandarin ang motor ng tangke.

habang pabalik ako sa aming bahay, nadinig at nakita ko ang mga pinapanuod ng aming mga kapitbahay. kami ay nakatira sa ika-8 pinto, mga 6 na pinto din yung nadaanan ko (sarado kasi yung ibang bahay). at lahat sila, ang pinapanuod, si annabelle rama, 'day. nanunuod sila lahat ng sharon. naman! siyempre, panauhin kaya niya si kc at si richard. at si annabelle nga. napahinto rin ako at nakinuod sa isang pinto. nakakaaliw nga naman kasi talaga si annabelle. para sa akin ha, papanuorin ko rin ang sharon dahil ke annabelle. hehe.

pagdating ko sa bahay namin, dali-dali kong sinilip ang aming telebisyon, para maabutan sana kung ano pa ang mga birada ni annabelle. ay mali. maling palabas. sabi ko: daddy, ikaw lang ang iba ang pinapanuod. lahat ng nadaanan ko, sharon ang pinapanuod. tayo, beijing olympics. nginitian lang ako. hinde na ako umapela, ako naman kasi ang may ari ng telebisyon mula kaninang 730. si remy naman ang pinapanuod namin, si remy-ng daga. mayamaya, patalastas sa beijing. inilipat ni jason. akala ko, sa sharon na. ay maling palabas pa rin. f1 european grand prix pala.

hinde ko alam kung dapat ba akong matuwa na iba ang pinapanuod amin...


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hinde kami excited

malapit na ang halloween! yahu! kahapon, nagpunta kami sa mall. wala lang. to buy some stuff. and para makapaglaro si aquim. and para makapasyal lang kami, this is just one of the ways how we bond as a family.

incidentally, i saw these cute halloween outfits for kids! oh wow! tinanong ko si jason, kung pwede ba kaming magtingin ng costume para kay aquim. at baka pwede na rin na maibili na namin sia.

you see, hinde uso dito sa lugar namin ang trick or treak. either with jason's office. it's a good thing that auntie mimi enlisted aquim to join in her company's annual trick or treat activity. it would be his first time! our first time!

so sabi ko ke jason, kailangan na talaga naming magtingin. kasi for sure, magkakaubusan na yan pag malapit nang maghalloween. baka ang matira sa amin, yung pinagpilian na. eh siyempre, gusto ko makapili ng magangdang costume na nababagay kay aquim.

at sa wakas ay nahila ko ang aking mag-ama papunta sa costume rack. nakita namin na meron dung f1 racer suit, a lion, a bug, a carrot, caveman and chef. nang makita namin lahat at ang kanilang tag price, sabi ni jason: wag na lang natin siyang ibili. magpatahi na lang tayo sa lola nya. tayo na lang ang gumawa. or hinde ba pwede yung costume nya nung birthday nya? sabi ko: duh? ano ba yung costume nya nung birthday nya? wala namang kakaiba. baket ano bang idea mo? ano bang gusto mong costume ni aquim?jason: gusto ko yung kuba siya.

ngek!

hinde kami excited.


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It's over... Nampucha!

Pucha! Isang taon na pla nila akong niloloko. Buntis pa lang ako ke aquim, there’s already something going on between them. Hinde ko man lang naramdaman. Officially, nung august 1, isang taon na sila. Pucha talaga! Si Jason at ang babae nya! Kaya pala…

Hinde ko ito mapapalampas. Nag-usap na kami. More of nagsigawan, nagmurahan. It’s over. Walang explanation ang pwede nyang gawin at sabihin para mapabilib nya pa ako. Kung nagawa nya akong lokohin, kami ni baby, that means hinde na kami importante sa kanya. Hinde nya kailangang mamili. Nakapagdecide na ako. We’re going our separate ways. I’ll be talking to a lawyer about this. Very soon. Kung maghihiwalay kami, dapat maayos. Ang lahat. At isa pa, gusto kong alisin ang apelyido nya sa pangalan ko. Kung pwede nga lang sa pangalan din ni Aquim.

We’ve made a promise, that if ever we feel that we no longer feel that it’s worth it, that we can no longer keep the relationship healthy, that we don’t love each other anymore, we’ll be honest to admit it to the other. However painful it may be, but atleast, in that way, it’s still less painful because the respect would still be there. So this bullshit, really pains me. My husband, my bestfriend, betrayed me?

I have to look for a job. Sa ngayon, pinalayas ko na siya. Umuwi na siya sa tatay nya. Sa bahay nila. At hinde ako mag eexplain sa mga magtatanong. Siya ang bahalang umamin sa kalokohan nya.

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Hayyy, buti na lang, panaginip lang ang lahat! Sa sobrang sama ng panaginip na ito, hinde na ko nakatulog uli! Grabe, 4am pa lang!

Akala nyo totoo noh?! Heheh GOTCHA! :p

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On a serious note, sobrang sakit kahit panaginip lang. As in. Kulang na lang ay magising akong umiiyak. Ganon. Ayaw kong mangyari ito. All along, aware akong panaginip lang ang lahat, kaya nga pinili ko na magising na. Pero sobrang sakit kahit alam kong panaginip lang. Ramdam na ramdam ko yung pain. Awwkkk…. Parang masakit talaga sa puso, physically ha. Brokerhearted talaga. I’m just so glad that it was just a dream.

Alam ko, me mag iinterpret ng mga dreams ekek na ito. Sasabihin, me pinanggalingan. Ek ek ek blah blah blah. Fyi, wala, it was just a dream. Di ko din alam kung san galling. Kung panong di ko din alam kung pano ko nanaginip ng mga aswang. At lately, si mark abaya kasama ang mga aliens. Haha

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Sorry ha..

common friend (to jason): kamukhang kamukha talaga ni jolen si aquim (matter of factly), sorry ha..?

me, overhearing it: ano yun, sorry kay jason kasi hinde nya kmukha si aquim, or sorry kasi kamukha ko si aquim?!

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my boys

realisations and changes

in my almost 6 months of having a non-income generating job, staying here at home, managing house hold chores, taking care of aquim, there are some realisations and changes that came to me:

1. i can do house hold chores. hehe. im not fond of doing it eversince. i was not domesticated. ngayon, i can do the laundry (washing machine, and aquim's clothes and our undies only), i can clean our house in jiff, i can iron clothes (aquim's only), tidy up the bed. tamad talaga ako dati. but now i can do those things na i hated to do before i had aquim. see... aquim does good to me.

2. i can be thrifty. money was no object for me. i believe that it has to be spent. be it for myself or others. kung yung iba nangangati ang kamay dahil magkakapera, ako dati, nangangati ang kamay para gastusin ang pera. before, ill spend and pay before thinking. thesedays, ill think first. and then think again. and then will not buy. har har har. atleast i know im helping out mother earth by consuming less.

3. humbling. it is a humbling experience. having no buying power means i have to be humble to ask for money. i have to be humble to check the tag price. i also have to accept what i can and cant do. i am used of not asking help from my parents. but now, i call them oftentimes just to help me out with aquim, usually during pupuching and bath time.

4. i can take a bath, fix my self in less than an hour. which used to be 2 hours.

5. bad hair day is everyday. need i say more?

6. i can be this selfless. i barely have time for myself. everything i do, i have to think of aquim. mula pagmulat ng mata, hanggang pagpikit at habang natutulog, si aquim lang. so you ask pano ko nagagawa tong blog, eto katabi ko si aquim. nagre wrestling kami kasi ang likot.

7. i can be this patient with aquim. and at the same time that impatient with jason. heheh. kawawa naman oh. wan ko ba. sa kanya yata navevent lahat ng pagod at frustrations.

minsan isip ko, kaya ko pala maging ganito. i know madami pang changes, i have to improve, to be better in almost all facets of being a wife (most specially) and a mother. daming pagbabago.

pag sinasabi kong i resigned, have to take care of my baby. dami nagtatanong baket? minsan tuloy naiisip ko masama ba ang ginawa ko? ang magresign to personally take our son? hinde ba noble ang ginawa ko? i should be working instead ?

naiisip ko din yun, lalo na pag nabubugnot na ko dito sa bahay, pag nag mo mall at ang themesong ko eh ang kanta ng yano (patingin tingin, di naman makabili). pag ang kulit kulit ni aquim. pag ang taba taba ng feeling ko. pero iniisip ko din, i am lucky that i have this chance to be with my son 24/7. to watch him grow. to be with him to witness all his 'firsts'. not everyone can do this. i may feel frustrated and fat, kawawa and and all, but hey someone else might be wishing she's on my shoes right now.

and i have to thank jason for that. he's shouldering all our expenses. and hinde naman siya nagkukulang. he provides us eveything that we need. siyempre yung mga luho ko, will have to take the backseat muna.

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cedie

dad and aquim

pictorial kami..sa bahay .. hihi...

kuwentuhan lang

obviously, wala akong magawa kaya magpopost na lang ako ng magpopost dito. at gusto ko ng cake. chocolate cake na merong while, pink, green traditional icing. yung malagkit na icing? yung pang birthday? wala lang.. parang angsarap eh… by the way, the picture above is a cake from starbucks, mango madness, Php 125.00.

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nagkakontakan na kami nung bago kong employer. sa may 2 na ako magstart sa kanila. hinde ko ma work-out yung april 16 eh. ayaw ako payagan ng current employer ko to terminate the contract a week ahead. well, that gives me a week for myself.. and the baby.

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speaking of our baby, 22 weeks na kami. mag-22, to be exact, bukas. we had our 7th check up last march 31. we’re okay. iba na din vitamins ko ngayon, 2 na. isang calcium supplement at isang iron supplement. at nag gain ako ng 5 pounds in 3 weeks time. sabi nga ni doctora, san naman galing yun?!


so far, there are atleast 12 people telling me na babae ang anak namin, while there are 7 na lalaki daw… hintayin na lang natin next month ang result ng ultrasound!

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pinag apply ko si jason for singapore. meron kasing nagtanong samin if interested kami, so nagsubmit resume. tinanong nga ako nun nagtanong kung papayagan ko daw si jason, sabi ko, ok lang, if the price is right. pero wala pa namang definite. wala pa din kami ineexpect. basta lang. subok lang.

nung umpisa, parang excited ako, na mag singapore si Jason. eventually, sa isip ko, baka makasunod din kami ni baby dun. at malapit lang ang singapore. madaling umuwi, madaling magpapunta. tapos siyempre mas malaki ang suweldo. kagabi, naisip ko lang na paano if makaalis nga si jason? pano if hinde pa ko nakakapanganak? pano if wala siya sa tabi ko habang nanganganak ako? kung makaalis naman siya after ako manganak, pano kami ni baby? kaya ko bang palakihin si baby mag isa? pano naman si jason sa singapore? mag isa lang siya dun? baka malungkot siya? kawawa naman siya dun. naku.. nag dadalawang isip na ko. parang hinde ko yata kaya na maghiwalay kami ni jason. parang dito na lang kaya kami …



about the pic: shot taken with my new toy