work again?

as blogged previously, i did some office hopping the other day. and as i visited one of it, i was informed that they might have this job opening that suits me. i was asked if im open in going back to work. i said yes. kasi that is the original plan. i should be working again when aquim turns 1.

pero sa loob ko, after thinking much of it, am i ready to be back in the corporate jungle?

am i ready to give up waking up in aquim's sweet time (not my own sweet time hehe, but still, not that early compared if im working)

taking naps in the morning and in the afternoon?

not braving the rush hour?

not being able to miss a single tv show that i desired to watch?

being able to do grocery any time of the day, thus avoiding long queues

being able to visit every aisle in the grocery without having to think of deadlines and office time

and most of all, being with aquim 24/7

honestly speaking, im really enjoying being a stay at home wife and mom. wan ko. when people ask me, kung hinde daw ba ako naiinip, i tell them, hinde talaga. kahit na routinary lang talaga ang maghapon namin, enjoy naman.

enjoy ako to have my breakfast with aquim.

enjoy ako putting him to sleep.

enjoy ako watching him practice his walking skills.

enjoy ako while watching tv (hehe).

enjoy ako taking my lunch while running after aquim. enjoy ako giving him bath.

enjoy ako doing his laundry.

enjoy ako tidying up our house.

occasionally of course, nakakaburyong din. lalo na pag crabby si aquim. pag i feel fat and ugly. pag we go to the mall and i cant buy stuff that i want. pag nakikita ko yung ibang mga nag ooffice. nakakamiss din.

so why would i work again. kasi mahal na ang gas. mahal ang bigas. mahal ang gatas. we are surviving naman. sa ngayon. pero pano pag malaki na si aquim? mas marami na ang gastos. mag aaral na siya. i dont want naman na mag aral lang siya sa kahit san. pano if magbebaby pa kami? malabo ng makasurvive kami.

sana lang i might be able to work at home. work with a decent salary naman. parang mas masarap na kasi kasama si aquim ngayon, mas mag iinteract na siya diba? magsasalita na siya. tapos hinde ako ang kausap nya.. yaya. so will i work again? i dont know. but ill be updating my CV soon.

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